Frustration

This last week I have been experiencing a roller coaster of emotions. One minute I am the happiest person alive, the next I am completely and utterly angry, pissed off, peeved, sad, etc. I know this last week of emotions may have to do with my cycle, but I am really considering that I am bipolar. I know it runs in my family, my dad seems to have a severe form of it. But, I really hope it was just me PMS ing.
I feel like a complete bitch. I seriously have the best, most perfect boyfriend I could EVER ask for. He is everything I have ever wanted, he treats me so well. Yet, I go around shove shit in his face. Shit that he doesn't deserve. Let me just say that not once has he ever done something wrong in our relationship. Even when I am at my lowest points, yelling at him, cussing him out, he stays calm, patient, and collected. It makes me wonder if he will be able to stay like that forever, or if after a while his true colors will show. A big part of me hopes that those really are his true colors though.
Last night I was in a pretty decent mood when I got home. I was tired from a long day of work, but I wasn't mad or sad. I was pretty happy. I was talking to him during this, but then all of the sudden my mood did a complete 180 and I turned into a bitch. There wasn't even anything that occurred to make my mood change, nothing sparked it. So it's times like these when I think that I could very well possibly be bipolar.
I don't want to lose him. This is the first man I have NO doubts about. I want to be with him forever. I don't care if we have only been together for two months. Does time really matter? I realize I want to be with him forever.
On a happier note, 11 more days till Meg and I move out into a better apartment, and I get Buddy today!!!